When officers were targeted and killed on July 7th (July=7; 7+7=14), I'd written a piece discussing the numerology of the karmic debt number "14" and how it is indicative of severe abuse of people who are innocent, including cold-blooded murder. The essay was written 11 hours before the attack. When I later heard what happened on the news, I was so horrified, I couldn't post it. Things like that happen pretty often these days. Being connected to the Universe isn't always about walking with Angels or having the sky open to a rainbow the moment you need it. You sometimes see really bad things coming. But you're helpless to stop it. All you can really do is pray.
Prayer for me is meditating on positivity, then radiating that out as positive energy. I've seen it work. The power of my prayer. I think I have that power because my very life hinged on others praying for me.
Fifteen years ago, I was diagnosed with a recurrence of brain cancer. It was bad. High grade. I was given two years. But people prayed for me. People I didn't even know. From all over the world. And of many different faiths. Nuns and monks and priests and rabbis. Muslim friends, Christian friends, Jewish friends, Buddhist friends, even friends who have no religious or philosophical ties at all prayed. And today, I'm here. Because, you wanted me here. You asked for me to stay. And, your prayers were answered.
My #Light persevered because of positive energy. And now, I do my best to give it to each of you, imbued in these very words. When you take them in to your mind, and hopefully, your heart, too, you take in pieces of my light. Several of you have told me to "save" some of my positive energy for myself. But that's not how it works. I can help you. But in order to do that, I cannot help myself. All I may do is offer a karmic invitation. You have free will. It's always up to you in how you wish to use it.
Two years ago, at almost exactly this time of year, I offered miracles to a person who had only seen difficulty from the moment he was born. He accepted my offer but just kind of expected to have those miracles delivered to him without any effort on his part. As if he were somehow entitled. But miracles don't work like that. When you're offered a miracle, you can only receive it if you're willing to put in the work to make it happen. People prayed for me 15 years ago and I'm here today, but in between, I put in great effort to maintain the miracle offered to me. I changed how I ate, how I moved, how I did almost everything in my life. It's called evolution. When we evolve, we adapt. When we adapt, we not only survive, we thrive. Every step I take is taken mindfully. There are no guidelines for a person like me now. Doctors don't even know what to say. I've lived five times longer than almost anyone else with a similar diagnosis. Science is equipped to quantify how things like radiation and chemotherapy work. But it has no method of measurement for miracles.
The power of miracles is quite real. I met one, you know. A miracle. He's a person, but he's also a miracle. Well, he's my miracle anyway. He doesn't even know he's a miracle. He thinks he's just a regular guy. But since I met him, my heart has almost completely healed. I've gotten stronger, healthier and have moved even closer to my goals. He's my friend. That's really all. But I'd been praying for him. For 18 months. Even though I've never been alone, I was incredibly lonely since the loss of my daughter. And just when I was about to give up hope of feeling whole again, he appeared. A rather handsome miracle at that....
Today happens to add up to "18." It's an "11" day, quite literally. And, as there are no coincidences, when my miracle talks to me, it's usually at a time that adds up to "11," like 9:02 or 7:31. He and I actually add up to #1111 when you put our birthdates together. We also have the numbers for double-infinity in our chart. I've had that kind of math with two other people, but this one is actually an exact mirror reflection of my numbers, minus one. And that number is represented in his combined chart with a sibling. Both he and his sibling are connected to me through their numbers. If you put their numerology together, it basically foretells my existence. Obviously, there's some cosmic plan that I can only guess at based on my limited understanding of what is the universal language. But whatever it might be, it's a rather intriguing puzzle in the meantime. One that has me motivated, inspired and healthier overall.
July 11th adds up to a double "9" or "18," which can then become yet a third "9." In numerology #999 signifies completion. Every variation of "9" adds up to "9." Though my friend and I are not the same age, we both turn ages in this "9" year (2+0+1+6=9) that also add up to "9." We were also both born in a year that adds up to "9." That is also three "9's," like today's date.
#999 is not just about completing an important life sequence; it's also about new beginnings. Every phase that comes to completion only opens the door to a new adventure. There is a sense of closure, fullness and satisfaction. That is exactly what my friend brought to me (big "yes" knock to that from my ethereal entourage...). #999 also means a karmic return to happiness. A return to feeling whole again. To being one with the source. In Kabbalah, #Light is the source of all. #Light is merely a manifestation of unconditional love. You can use that unconditional love to create new realities, to build and teach and guide. To bring change into your world.
And, do you know what follows change? Life....
The number "18" represents "life." The slew of recent tragedies in the States beginning exactly one month ago today creates a forced sense of nihilism. As if nothing matters. But that's what negative energy does. It makes you feel worthless--like you don't matter--which in turn makes it nearly impossible for you to value anything else. That's why, no matter how bad things are for you, or how bad things are in the world, turn away from the negatives and embrace only positive energy.
What are you thankful for? Find your gratitude and you'll lose the attitude.
Even before the Universe delivered me the friend I had been praying for, I had to do the work. I had to experience my grief. I could leave no stone un-turned. I unpacked every memory I'd literally put into boxes. So many, it took two storage units to hold them all. That's a lot of memories! Facing those memories meant that I had to stop running from my past--again, that was quite literal. But once I did, once I was ready to face the things that were otherwise unthinkable, everything changed. It happened almost immediately. But in order for me to get to that place, I had to learn/earn unconditional love. You may be alive but you are not living if you lack real love. Real love isn't just between two souls. Real love starts with only one. You.
When you have unconditional love present in the self, it becomes your shield and your guide. That's what positive energy is: Unconditional love. There is no ego. No pride. You understand everything. You understand nothing. And your compassion for all is a continuous flow. The source? Your soul. If you can love yourself without judgment, you can love others the same way.
We're all on a journey of awakening. Today is about completing the phase of our cycle where fear and loathing are valued above love. Today is a day that demands we cherish life. Our own. And, the lives of others. You may want to consider how you look at animals today. Why is it okay to feed a kitten, but eat a calf? Stop placing judgment on one life over another. When you do, you free yourself from the judgment of others, too. Because, you are finally cherishing life. In all its many forms. You can achieve miracles then. You can heal yourself. You can heal others. You can be a window to heaven. You shine your light onto everyone around you. You can make manifest positive change in not just your own reality but for others as well.
Though the person I offered miracles to was unprepared to receive them, I guarantee that his life has started to show positive change today. Perhaps it is small, but every day, his experience with me alters his perceptions that had gone largely unchallenged. Now, he knows there is goodness in the world. He knows there is light. Perhaps most importantly, he knows there is freedom. He's tasted it. And once we taste it, our souls will never stop searching for it. I may never see the full results of the positive change I had on this man's life, yet I still know it exists.
You may not even realize that you, too, are someone's miracle. You may not see the positive impact you have on another person. But I guarantee that you do. That's why you can't give up on yourself. You can't give up on others either. Just focus on unconditional love. Develop that inside you. Make it real. Bring it to life by bringing it into your consciousness. Be mindful of it. Spare the life of a spider. Look where you step on the sidewalk. Feed the birds in your yard. Be kind to all life. Love all life. And yours will improve.