I just spent the last hour re-reading my posts from 2013. It all foreshadowed things that would unfold a year or more later. Like a prophecy. But I'm not the prophet. You are. You're the ones who pointed me to that year, thanks to analytics. And so it is to you I owe a debt of gratitude for showing me what waits in my future by pointing out my past.
You have supported me, inspired me and now, guided me on my long and winding path. I want each of you to know how special you are.
I wish I could say that the last two years will be relieved of their burdens in my future. To be honest, I just don't know. And I want so badly to share good news with you. So you can find it in yourselves to move forward from whatever difficulties you may be facing. One day, we will all see the progress that eludes us today. Until then, my dear readers, please live your best lives. If you love someone and are holding back on communicating your feelings, tell the person you love that you love them, no matter what. If you don't think you're worthy or have no way to offer things like financial support, do whatever you can to connect with that love, regardless of any roadblocks you've created. Things have a way of working out. Two heads are always better than one.
Don't hold back on truly living. Don't wait for magical moments. Don't get so lost looking for signs, that you miss your window of opportunity. Find love. Real love. And hold on to it for dear life. Change jobs, move, re-educate, get divorced...whatever you need to do to move your life forward, do it. Hesitating won't help. We regret the things we don't do more than anything else. In other words, the ghosts that will haunt you at the end of your life aren't people, they are lost chances. Missed opportunities. People we love no longer in our lives because we walked away and were afraid to turn back.
Whether my life is ever "right" again matters so much less than you going forward in your own lives and meeting the challenges you need to meet in order to have a happy life. Be brave! Embrace yourselves, your desires, your dreams. Stop living small. Stop delaying your growth. Shine!
My star is not infinite, regardless of my claims on #immortality. I will not always be here to encourage you. You must remember each day, on your own, to live fully, love well, and choose better.
I have made more mistakes in the last two years. I am pulled under the water each day and drown all over again as a result. I talk a good game, but I'm terrified that I won't make it out of this one alive. No matter what I do, my lungs end up full of water. After reading previous posts from 2013, I can see the energy levels that aided me in surviving and thriving past difficulty is really not there anymore. My losses were too great, too traumatic, too deep. But I am still here, so there is hope. Miracles happen. And you all are certainly one of mine....
Have faith! Especially if it wavers. When that happens, you know you're getting close to your break through. Stay uplifted!!! Work from a place of positive energy, avoiding violence/negativity of any kind. Be proactive, not reactive. Remember that kindness and compassion are totally free and easy to give, as well as receive. Know that you are the only one who controls your thoughts--no one else.
And, if you are lucky enough to meet your #TwinFlame, don't walk away. But if your #Twin does, let them go, knowing that your connection will bring them back to you. Never be passive about things you want in your life. Don't stop communicating how you feel. Release your ego, anger, pride, insecurities, guilt, and shame. Stand tall. And, shine on!!!
I am with you. In the here and now, for now, but in spirit, always. Never give up. Believe. I do. In you.